So last January, I was pretty happy with. my A1c when I left the doctor’s office. It was 7.4. The lowest it’s been in, about, forever. And I was confident that with my eating habits, exercise habits, pumpy Lola Too, and CGMS Dexter Dexcom, I was ready for that magic number: 6.9 or better.
But something has happened since then. Somehow I have lost the ability to eat low-carb. I think that part of it was dealing with losing my job and no longer having money to buy my own food. I’m depending on my parents for buying me food, and let’s face it, as I mentioned yesterday, they shop for cheap, not for health, or for a diabetic. Exercise motivation has been ringing in at a dead zero, even with the weather lately. I did actually exercise this morning, but wound up spiking my blood sugar because of it and in my frustration, stopped after ten minutes (not only in frustration but also because my CGMS was ringing in at over 240 and I am just not a fan of keytones).
So I am frustrated with the roller coaster that has ensued. I find my self over 200 almost every day. After every meal. And as soon as I get into range, it’s mealtime and I shoot up to over 200 again in minutes. What’s happened?
1. I’ve been eating nothing but white pasta and rice when it comes to carbs. I also eat wheat bread, but honestly, it spikes me just like white bread. And milk. Milk is so delicious. I love it so much! But it just does not agree with my blood sugars. And my favorite substitute, unsweetened almond milk, is really too expensive for me to ask my dad to buy for me.
2. No exercise – it just doesn’t help. Exercise actually helps my blood sugar for hours and hours after I do it (usually) and I just need that.
3. Dawn Phenomenon – I raised my morning basal another .25 because I am so frustrated that I can wake up between 100 and 130 and be 150-200 within an hour without eating. Obviously, my sky high basals are not sky high enough!
I don’t like how high my basal rates are. Maybe it has something to do with how much weight I’ve gained. I just do not want to have to start taking any oral medications. Which is kind of hypocritical of me, because I get frustrated when T2’s, like people I go to church with, get upset about having to start taking insulin because they see it as “failing” when the simple fact is that the body degenerates and most T2’s should have to take insulin after several years (so I’ve heard, sorry no citation here). Does taking Metformin mean I’ve failed as a T1?
I’m just sick of the ups and downs. I’m sick of being over 250 for half the day. I feel like crap. I had control, and now it’s slowly slipping away. I don’t want to get my A1c back this month. I’m just not looking forward to it. But it’s something I have to do, so I know where I’m at and where I need to go.
Umm, can anybody get me off this thing?