Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever spent your day with a weight on your head, a clamp on your jaw, lead weights on your feet, and duct tape on your eyelids?

Have you ever stood up and immediately fell back down? Felt like your world was spinning, or like your heart was going to burst out of your chest bearing helicopter wings? Felt like your head was wrapped in cotton? Felt like your head moved left and your eyes stayed right? Felt like you were sweating enough to wash your dog?

I have. I would say I feel one of these ways on an almost-daily basis. Whether my blood sugar is high or low, I’m fighting a feeling of exhaustion and weakness. Only when I am in normal range do I feel OK, unless I am recovering from said highs or lows, in which case I still feel crappy. It makes it hard to get anything done. And people wonder why diabetics feel depressed.

This is what it feels like to deal with this disease. It’s not something easy. It’s not as simple as watching what you eat and taking a shot now and then. It’s not just pricking your finger a few times a day. If you have type 2, it’s more than swallowing a pill! It’s always wondering what exactly is happening inside your body, and wondering whether or not you really have control over it.

If you have never felt this way, I hope you never do.

Welcome to diabetes. Welcome to my life.

Advertisements

4 thoughts on “Have you ever felt this way?

  1. Amy

    I know I don’t have diabetes, but I’ve had days like that. Being pregnant, especially in the beginning, can be like that. I feel for you friend. Although, I have to admit, I almost laughed out loud when I read the line “felt like you are sweating so much you could wash your dog?” We need to hang out soon!

    Reply
  2. Donna

    Hi Sarah! I found your blog through Alexis’ post. šŸ™‚

    I both love and hate reading posts like this.

    I love it because it’s an insight into my son’s feelings. Feelings he is still too young to express. I hate it because it breaks my heart knowing he is feeling these things and there is nothing I can do about it.

    Thank you so much for sharing!

    -Donna
    http://www.sugarkidsblog.com

    Reply
  3. Bec

    Yep, been there more times than I like to remember. Feels like you’ll never feel good ever again. Well written post Sarah, I’ll be stopping by again

    Reply

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s